I have the most profound and exhilarating feeling that my life is about to crack wide open. It's about to become extraordinary beyond my wildest dreams.

Aaaaaah 2014. I've felt some of the weight has lifted already. December was crazy and stressful, mostly work-induced. Christmas was difficult as yet another wave of ended-relationship misery crashed into me. But January appeared with glittering hoarfrost on the trees and suddenly everything seems a bit more sparkly and easier to manage. Strange, ( Read more... )

"What kind of success are you envious of?" - Danielle LaPorte's question of today. "By observing our envy, we shine light on our true desires ( Read more... )

Saturday night I went to the Rocky Mountain Wine & Food Festival with Jade and a few of her coworkers. It was fun to get out, the girls were nice, we all shared sips and bites, I chose some fantastic wines to taste, and the food (and cheese!) was all delicious!! That's my favourite way to eat and drink, and little sips and nibbles. Lovely! And it ( Read more... )

Not that long ago Mike made a comment to me about how I must be so disappointed, that I got neither the boyfriend nor the cat that I wanted. It was an offhand remark, but it settled deep into my psyche. I'm not always as grateful as I should be, nor am I as accepting as the world around me needs me to be. I expect people to be accepting of me, in ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a bit better. The talk with Stevie has really helped me have a clearer perspective on this, and while it still hurts like hell, it also feels like maybe a scab is starting to form, like the wound isn't quite so raw.

I had coffee (Indian tea latte) with Sonja, we talked and I cried. I'm still sensitive. I confessed a bit about feeling ( Read more... )

I only had one person show up to class last night. Mike has started moving stuff out and it feels like a punch in the gut. He and I spent hours last night wrapped in each others arms, crying our faces off. It was our last night together ( Read more... )

Had a spa day this morning. Maclean gave me a package for my birthday last year, dunno why it took me so long to use it. It was GLORIOUS! Hour massage, hour facial, all natural products, in a gorgeous facility. It felt so good. I really wish I could justify/afford more of those ( Read more... )

Vancouver was lovely. So lovely, in fact, that by the end of my stay I was seriously considering moving there. I guess I should say I AM seriously considering moving there. Not immediately, but maybe by next June?? I've always liked Vancouver, but as I walked and drove through a few neighbourhoods this time, I really could see myself living there. ( Read more... )

Mike and I went to counseling tonight. There's a first time for everything, I suppose. It was..... ok. Pretty much what I expected, I guess. It didn't dredge up anything that he and I haven't hashed out before, and there wasn't really much progress, but I suppose that comes with time. What did surprise me was the fact that afterwards Mike was all ( Read more... )